Psalm 139 is an area of scripture that has really been ministering to me lately.
This part specifically I want to share:
“Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!” Psalms 139:14-18 NLT
We are all designed incredibly, intentionally and complexly. And some days I really feel the “complex” part! My thoughts and emotions can feel beyond me correctly analyzing. Yet every day of our lives was written down ahead of time according these verses. And even upon reflecting on our days gone by, it’s hard to really understand what God’s ways and purposes were and are in our individual experiences. Then verse 17 comes, “How precious are your thoughts about me, God. They cannot be numbered!”
David as the author has this revelation that it’s not in the narrative of our life itself that value is found. The thing we can consider as most precious about and amidst our stories is what God’s thoughts have been. What have God’s thoughts been about you while you were struggling with sin and doubt? And then when you were stepping out with that little bit of faith you had? That is what is precious; what God thinks about it. Because we know that during all of those seasons we’ve experienced, to Him it was all worth Him dying for and redeeming. His thoughts, emotions and actions toward us were always of love. Of encouragement. Of active prayer in Heaven for us, and of sadness and rejoicing with us. God is love and love rejoices when the truth wins out in our lives. He rejoiced when we called on Him in our own unique way/time and He is still rejoicing when we believe Him and talk with Him. David is saying, “Although I am incredibly unique and every good, bad, sad, embarrassing and hard thing about my life was prerecorded and might be hard to make sense of… what I actually esteem the most is what You consider about my days, God. Your thoughts are much higher than mine.”(Isaiah 55:9)
Don’t forget to involve God’s perspective on the story of your life. To Him the plot of your life might as well be a best-seller. Because He views you as His unique child whom nobody could take the place of. May we all have this same wisdom David had and more as we recall the stories of our lives too. We won’t stay stuck in meaningless retrospection and introspection by making the thing we prize most about our stories be what God is speaking and has spoken over us!
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